How to Heal from Suffering

There are many people suffering in this world from depression, mental illness, spiritual issues, hopelessness, just to name a few. If you are one of these people, you may have tried a host of different things such as therapy, energy healing, meditation, yoga and other spiritual practices. But maybe you still feel like something is missing.

The 3 key ingredients I've found in healing is:

• Learning to love and forgive ourselves
• Learning to forgive those who have hurt us
• Healing our relationship with God

The 4th ingredient I would add is spiritual shamanic healing. Spiritual shamanic healing removes trauma and other blocks on a deep level, so that we can be free of what is holding us back.

Many people unfortunately have issues with God.

You don't have to be religious to find God. God is the wholeness and completeness of pure love and light. We can heal our relationship with God by having a personal relationship with God. The best way to do this is to pray to God in your own way.

We are all spiritual beings having a human experience. This means that we are also pure love and light at the core of who we are. What makes us suffer is negativity that does not belong to us. This negativity can come in many forms, such as trauma, negative beliefs, subconscious blocks, etc.

Spiritual healing goes deep into the core of what is creating our suffering to release these blocks, giving us the opportunity live more as our true selves. This is different than energy healing. Energy healing usually adds more light to heal our energy field. Energy healing techniques also sweep negative energy out. But spiritual healing goes to the root of the issue and pulls it out.

Blocks and issues can prevent us from feeling love for ourselves. Loving ourselves become easier when these blocks and issues are removed. Loving ourselves includes having self respect, dignity, deserving and worthiness.

The more we know how great God is, the more we know our own worth, because we all came from God. It becomes easier to love and heal ourselves. It also becomes easier to love and forgive others, because we realize that they too come from God.

Most people have a huge misconception of God. They associate God with religion, being judged, being "churchy" or something else that doesn't feel good. God is also not a fairy that lives in the sky. In truth, God has nothing to do with these things. God is just pure love. Very simple.

Religions and spiritual practices are pointers that are meant to help us find our own personal relationship with God. With love and light.

Confusion, doubts and disbelief in a God is also caused by negativity that can be healed. Blocks in our consciousness can make it impossible to believe in God. Those who have felt traumatized, anxious or depressed their entire lives might feel it impossible to imagine that pure love and light can exist. This is one of the main reasons people have a hard time believing in God.

Healing is possible for suffering. It is just a matter of finding the right kind of healing.

Spiritual shamanic healing has provided the best results in my experience.

A Serious Spiritual Reason Not to Commit Suicide

There is a reason we are all here on this earth. Some of us may suffer more than others, sometimes in unimaginable ways that most people would not understand.

I understand this, because I suffered a lot in my life. I was often suicidal. In fact, I tried to commit suicide when I was sixteen years old. I thank God that I survived. I still suffered from depression for many years afterward, well into adulthood. But I have an understanding and appreciation for what I went through because it helped me to grow as a person.

There were times that I felt nothing in this world could ever justify the suffering I went through.

However, in time everything finally made sense. I would like to share some of what I've learned.

Every single person in this world is here for spiritual reasons. We are all here to learn, grow and become closer to God, which is our true Home of Love and Light. We are all consciousness, which lives on after our physical bodies die. We still keep our same personalities, we just don't have bodies anymore.

We don't instantly become "enlightened" after crossing over into the spiritual realm after death. Our consciousness stays at the same level as when we were last alive. This means that if there were any dark areas in your personality, it stays with you in your consciousness even after death. We might experience heaven or God or other spiritual realms of the cosmos, but this will only be temporary if our consciousness still needs healing and growth.

What happens after our temporary experience in the spiritual realm is that we reincarnate and are given another life. This is another chance to work out our problems and grow in God's consciousness.

Life as a human being on earth is the most powerful way to learn, grow and heal on a spiritual level. Trying to do this while in heaven would be like learning out to swim in the ocean while sitting on a yacht. You just can't learn while you're blissed out with God. You need to be thrown in the water so to speak.

A special note: For some people, the pain of life is too tremendous to comprehend how their horrible experiences can be justified. It might feel insulting to hear that their suffering is a "learning experience." Please know that I understand. There are few words I can offer except to say healing is here for you and to please do not give up hope.

The trials and tribulations we face force us to grow. Through our struggles, we have the opportunity to mature, to learn how to love and forgive ourselves and others, to let go of worldly attachments that don't serve us spiritually, and so on.

In addition to this, we are here to help the people we meet during our lives. It might not seem like it while in the midst of suffering, but we have valuable duties to fulfill. We teach the people in our lives in very subtle yet important ways. Just by being ourselves, our very presence influences others to learn, to be better people, to learn from their interactions with people.

You don't need to be a celebrity or superhero to have a special role in life. Your particular role already is special just by your very presence.

When someone commits suicide, they have negated a very important spiritual contract.

Please do not misunderstand. I do not judge those who have passed by their own doing. I understand how much suffering it takes to want to leave this world. I have the utmost compassion for anyone who has experience this kind of pain.

But I would like people to understand that when someone dies before they were meant to, there is no more chance to learn, grow and help others. That person has lost their chance to grow in consciousness and to help any people they were meant to assist during that life.

It is not as easy as just reincarnating into another life. The spiritual world is not magic like that. It could take hundreds of years to reincarnate. And in the mean time a very serious ripple effect will have occurred on earth.




You never know where your life is going to take you in the future. You never know where it will lead, how things might turn a corner.

I had no idea when I was sixteen, or during any part of my life, that I would have a spiritual awakening in my 40s that would lead to becoming a spiritual healer.

I had no idea that if I were to perish at sixteen, that certain people in my life would have missed opportunities to heal and grow in consciousness. Not by my Will, but by God's Will through me. People have learned from me and I from them through the course of my life. Not just as a healer, but as a friend, relative, coworker, or even stranger on the street.

What we do matters! Everything we do has consequences-good or bad-that we will eventually have to face!

I have grown in ways that would not have happened if I had committed suicide. It would have been a tragic spiritual loss. And all the people in my life would have experienced a tremendous loss in their growth as well.

And the same goes for you. You are important in this world beyond what you realize. You have a lot of opportunities in your life to grow, change and be better. Please do not waste it!  This life that you have right now is your chance.

The goal in life is to become better in the best way that you know how. Just do your best. And try to grow spiritually the best you can. Pray to God in your own way. There are many different spiritual practices and beliefs. But having a personal relationship with God, in our own way, is the most important thing we can do.

A life of burning karma

We are all here living our lives with the sole purpose to get closer to the Divine, our true home of love and light. Some people are just more conscious of it than others.

As part of our stay here on this physical earth with our physical bodies, we learn lessons, grow and advance in consciousness. Some people will live lives in the normal cultural tradition of having kids and families, or may pursue unique dreams and goals, or do great things to help this world. Other people will struggle in life just to survive.

Have you noticed that some people seem to be able to slide by in life? They are happy and cheerful. People want to be around them. Things seem to come easily to them.

And then have you noticed people who struggle more? They may be more stressed, anxious or depressed. They keep having bad luck with things. They struggle to pursue their dreams and goals. It is harder for these people to succeed.

There are a range of spiritual issues that can cause people to feel like they are struggling. These issues can include: 

• trauma, emotional wounds and other things in our psyche that need healing
• ancestral negativity that passed down your family line
• karma from one's current or past lives
• curses and witchcraft
• negative spirits and dark forces
• being in or around negative energies

 These all consist of heaviness, darkness and negativity that hold us back and make it harder to live. When we are healed and cleared of all these issues, we feel light and positive. Things in life flow better and come to us easier, and we feel clear in our mind, heart and emotions.

Some people, no matter how much healing they get and no matter how hard they try, will find that their lives are very slow to improve. They notice that they have to work harder than other people. This could be because they are carrying a lot of heavy karma from past lives.

These people discover that they are not living life for themselves--in other words, they are not living life for their own desires and goals. Instead, they are living life for the higher good of their soul. There may be a lot of suffering because their soul may actually want to pursue certain things in life. But because there is so much karma, it won't be able to until all the karma is released.

For these people, it is helpful to remember the big picture: that their soul is growing spiritually. It is also best to focus on loving and forgiving the self, as well as spiritual practice that helps them get closer to God. Prayer and meditation are good practices, as well as any religion that helps them feel closer to God.

On Consciousness

The more darkness and unopened ones consciousness, the more confusing and "weird" more advanced spiritual teachings and practices will seem.

This does not apply to all teachings and practices. Some of them really are superficial or not that good.

Surprisingly, someone can do powerful spiritual teachings, yet have a simplistic understanding of God and Consciousness.

However, healer or not, those who are humble and in their heart are most likely to be closer to God.

Someone can have a hard life filled with sorrow, yet experience more spiritual growth and consciousness than a spiritual growth teacher.

A spiritual teaching or practice can be non-beneficial and possibly even hurtful in one stage of growth, yet, after much healing and growth in consciousness, that same teaching may become necessary during a later stage of growth

Nobody has all the answers. Nobody.

Your intuition your spiritual growth is always the best answer and trumps any spiritual guru or master. You know yourself and what resonates with you best.

Different spiritual healings and practices are complicated. There are different factor at play that many people don't realize. Spiritual hygiene. Closeness to high frequencies of God. Effectiveness at helping people love themselves and become closer to God. Also take into account that some of the older techniques may now have become antiquated due to the changing times. And others may have become diluted due to not keeping with the same teachings, understandings and traditions.

Great spiritual teachers and healers may conflict with each other. Yet may still be needed by a person. And they will have reconcile with that.

If it gets you closer to God and helps with suffering, then it is the right way for you.

The Truth about Ayahuasca

Yes, ayahuasca can give most people powerful visions, and even healing sometimes. But this doesn't mean it is as safe, healthy or even as spiritual as most people believe.

 

Five years ago I experienced 18 ayahuasca ceremonies within a one year time period in order to heal emotional, physical and spiritual issues. I wanted the most powerful healing possible, and I thought ayahuasca was it.

Since then I'd discovered spiritual healing that, in my personal opinion, makes ayahuasca seem like tinker toys in comparison. This is not to judge or criticize anyone who does ayahuasca. I respect any decision someone makes for their spiritual or healing path. And I completely understand why someone would turn to ayahuasca. I fully understand the potential of ayahuasca, and what can can be experienced during ceremonies.

However, there are some things most people aren't quite aware of about ayahuasca, realities about ayahuasca and the spiritual world that need to be addressed and also some red flags about the ayahuasca community in general.

If you are serious about healing and spiritual growth, and are willing to have an open mind, I encourage you to read further.

It is important to know that the spirit world is real, with both good and bad spirits and everything in between. Ayahuasca is considered a plant medicine that originates from the Amazon jungle. It is a plant spirit. When consumed it can open people up to visions and experiences and insights. It can also make people purge in various ways such as vomiting, shaking and diarrhea. I will share what I have learned since my experiences with ayahuasca and my own expansion of consciousness as I've trained to become a shamanic healer.

Ayahuasca opens up your consciousness and energy field, meaning anything, good or bad, can come in or out of your energy field.  

 

Please understand that, because ayahuasca makes you spiritually open, ANY negative energies, dark forces or spirits can affect you or gain access to your consciousness during the ceremony. Any energies can start floating around and mess with or "infect" people.

Ayahuasca ceremonies lack spiritual hygiene. 

 

Spiritual hygiene means keeping ourselves clear of dark and negative energies, spirits and any dark forces. Just like we bathe and brush our teeth for our physical health, we need spiritual hygiene to keep us clear and healthy spiritually. If we don't, it can affect our wellbeing.

Spiritual hygiene is THE most important thing for any spiritual healing modality. This is because both client and healer need to be protected from dark energies during the healing sessions. It doesn't matter if you got a really big healing if negative energy is just going to get right back on you again.

Ayahuasca ceremonies are one of the most spiritually dirty healing modalities out there. They are usually held in crowded spaces with up to 15-30 people. Everyone's consciousnesses and energy fields become wide open, everyone's spirits leave their bodies, making their bodies open and  vulnerable to any negative energies or spirits that come along. It doesn't matter how powerful of an experience you have. If there is no spiritual hygiene then it's like cleaning yourself in dirty bath water. In the case of ayahausca ceremonies, it's like taking a bath with 30 other people and all their issues--spirit possession, depression, alcoholism and drug addiction, and so on.

Yes, it is true that the ayahuasceros leading the ceremony can do things to cleanse the healing space and open the ceremony. However, I personally have not met any who are doing it at the highest level, and what they are doing is not strong enough to prevent negative energies and spirits from affecting ayahuasca participants. Although you don't hear about it often, It is easy to find stories on the internet of people who came away with PTSD, psychotic breaks and damaged energy fields from ayahuasca ceremonies. I had really terrible experiences involving negative spirits and ceremonies that had gone wrong.

The highest level of spiritual hygiene that I've ever experienced comes from a natural born shaman who is also my teacher. It is the cleanest, purest and most light filled method, and all other modalities I've tried from other healers and teachers do not compare. I do not use any other methods and will not participate in any healing modalities that do not use these same hygiene procedures.

Ayahuasca is not a "good" spirit. It is neutral and can be used for either good or bad, depending on the person's intention.

 

Ayahuasca is not a spirit of the highest level. I don't claim to be an expert on how ayahuasca works, but I do know for certain that it is not a spirit that is working specifically and only for God {meaning ONLY unconditional love, light and compassion--no darkness whatsover}. Ayahuasca is not good or bad. It is neutral. It is a tool. It is used to open people up spiritually. But someone can use ayahuasca for dark forces or malevolent reasons if they wanted to.

If ayahuasca worked for God, then there would not be so many people who've had bad and traumatizing experiences with it. It would not be allowing negative energies or scary spirits.

Healing should be a beautiful experience filled with love and light.

Spirits and spirit guides that are working for God will only work with people who are of the highest integrity, and who have been healed themselves. As I will explain, ayahuasca ceremonies can be led by anyone who've been taught how, no matter how good or bad they are. Do some research. Pay attention to the bad experiences people have had. Listen to the red flags.

One interesting thing I learned during a retreat in Peru is that historically,ayahuasca was used by indigenous people to help them defeat their enemies. It is also used by "brujos," those who specialize in curses and black magic. People can choose to use ayahuasca for good. But the fact is that it can still be used for bad. There is absolutely no integrity in that.

Ayahuasca ceremonies can be run by anyone--alcoholics, people with big egos, rapists, etc.

 

This is a huge red flag and I never understood why the ayahuasca community was so quick to overlook this. While there are many people with good intentions and in good integrity who do run ceremonies, it is also well known that women have been molested and raped by certain ceremony leaders. I also hate to think of what some of these ceremony leaders might be able to do with the consciousnesses of their participants.

It makes sense that for any healing modality to be in integrity, those facilitating the ceremonies must be in good standing at the highest level. Some people view ayahuasca as something they do independently, and do not consider those running the ceremony to be part of the healing. But participants really are still vulnerable to and in the care of whoever is facilitating the ceremony.

For most people, any healing from ayahuasca is temporary.

 

This was my experience, and I saw this with other people as well. I've heard of a few examples of people who have healed chronic conditions. But those who were healed represent just a few out of many people I've known who had participated in ceremonies. Books have been written with case studies of people who have been healed, but there is no mention of the people who have been harmed. And I wonder about follow up. How many of those people are still healed months or years down the road?

While it is possible for some to benefit from ayahuasca, it is with a lot of risk as already mentioned. I've experience how the ayahuasca community defends themselves and ayahuasca, placing blame on anyone who complains about ayahuasca, saying they didn't do enough work on themselves. This is very unfair and selfish, and only harms those already in a fragile state who don't have anywhere else to go for support.

There are higher forces of Healing Love and Light than what Ayahuasca can offer.

 

It is easy to feel that ayahuasca is the most powerful healing modality out there because of the experiences it provides. I want to make it clear that this is not true. There is no need to spend up to $300 for a 5 hour ceremony filled with terrifying and nonsensical visions, confusing experiences and physical purges that take you to the edge.

Those participating in ayahuasca ceremonies are usually told to use intention to guide their ceremonies. However spirits and dark forces can interfere. In addition to this, I believe someone's own ego and negative energy can get in the way of their own healing. It's like trying to do surgery on yourself.

There is also a harmful belief in the ayahuasca community that "ayahuasca gives you want you need, not what you want." This is a very broad and unfair statement. Nobody knows what one is experiencing during these ceremonies or why it is happening. Nobody "needs" to have a dark spirit tormenting them, or experiences that leave them suicidal for months after the ceremony has ended.

I was fortunate enough to discover faith-based shamanic healing that uses God/Source/Spirit for healing. I didn't believe it was possible at first. But I was amazed to discover that this type of healing was far more powerful and did so much more for me than ayahuasca ever did. It helps people to heal and grow spiritually much quicker and in a much more pure and loving way. It is also costs a lot less!

These healings are pure love, pure light, and only done by healers with the utmost compassion and integrity. We use a very strict protocol of spiritual hygiene that protects both the client and healer. And there is no room for negative energies to interfere. I got more healing from this modality in six months than I did with a year and a half of ayahuasca ceremonies and other spiritual healers/modalities combined. It is only of the highest good and can never be used for bad at all.

  Are people really ready for healing at the highest level?

 

I'm not saying that the healing I use is the best way for everyone. I understand that there are many beautiful healing modalities out there. But if someone is suffering and really wants healing, are they willing to let go of their old ways of doing things? This is what I had to do, and it was the hardest, most heart-breaking thing I ever had to do. I was in love with the idea of doing ayahuasca and wanted so badly to experience lots of healing with the ceremonies. But the truth was that it was not working for me. I was spending lots of money doing ceremonies that often just left me confused, with a community that was not able to give me the support I needed. And my life was spiraling out of control. I had also tried other spiritual and shamanic healers but was not getting the healing I needed. 

When I took my first class with the faith-based shamanic healing that I now provide, it was the first time I felt safe in two years. And I finally felt like I was on the right path. But I knew that many others I knew would not be willing to change their ways to follow this other path--friends, healers and even spiritual teachers. They were too embedded into doing ayahuasca, too attached to their own ways of doing things, to see that there were safer and more effective ways of healing. So I had to let all of my old friends, healers and spiritual teachers go.

In conclusion

 

I do not claim to know the perfect way to spiritual growth and healing. I realize that everyone has their own path and that everything happens for a reason. This is why I do not judge or criticize what others decide to do.  However, there are things that I know now that I did not know five years ago. I am more intuitive, more mature, more healed, more knowledgeable of the spirit world and have grown in consciousness significantly since being on my current spiritual path.

Unfortunately I didn't know what I was dealing with at the time I did ayahuasca: all the spiritual energies--much of them negative or nonsensical, the red flags from ceremony leaders, the egos from those willing to defend ayahuasca when, in reality, it sadly seemed more like ayahuasca had them in some sort of grip. These are things that I can now see and sense due to the powerful healings I've received since then. 

I don't know if those doing ayahuasca are really being taken to the highest level of God's healing and light. I'm not even saying that ayahuasca can't be used in that way. But if any healing modality isn't being used with the highest integrity with facilitators and healers who are working for God and with the highest intention of healing for others, then people aren't being healed at the highest level. Five years ago I did 18 ayahuasca ceremonies with three different reputable and popular ayahuasca healers, and I had bad experiences with all of them. My hope is to help anyone else out there who is looking for healing, and to help them make the best educated decision. 

If you would like more information, have questions or are just curious about the fath-based shamanic healing that I mentioned, I am happy to discuss this with you at no charge. Email me at christine@sacredconnectionhealing.com 

Karma

Karma is real.

If we treat people bad, are condescending, abusive or even just rude, it's like putting a black mark on yourself. I have seen this, not only on other people but also on myself. Everyone has a certain amount of karma.

We erase karma by apologizing, being more kind and considerate, and by changing our ways. We also erase karma by forgiving and forgetting. This can be hard to do sometimes, but it just takes persistence.

WHAT HAPPENS WHEN WE HAVE A LOT OF BAD KARMA?

 It comes back to you, and you attract negative things in life simply through law of attraction. I'm not saying this is the only reason bad things can happen, but why make things worse with bad karma? Karma can be unconscious and not something you're even aware of, for example something you forgot you did or from a past life. Spiritual healings can help with this. Karma might not come back to you in this life time, but it will come back to you somehow.

Negativity can also be passed down to children. The energy of parents can be passed down to their children. Just look at certain families and it will be obvious that there are certain patterns and traits they all share, negative or positive.

Nobody is perfect but please be careful with your choices. We can't just do whatever we want in this world without some kind of repercussion.

Accepting Christ is an acceptance of healing

Jesus Christ is here to heal us, not judge us.

There is a misunderstanding, caused by the darkness within us that doesn't want to be revealed. This darkness would rather deny the Light than face the shame of what it really is. Sin.

The concept of sin is difficult for us to understand. We are not bad people. But we are born with ungodly tendencies. Jesus healed us, but we fail to recognize this. We do not become healed until we accept the healing that Jesus did for us.

At least that's how I believe it's supposed to work....I'm still working on understanding this myself.

Watch Mark Hemans' videos on YouTube and see what you think for yourself.

On healers charging money for their services

I did not ever intend to be a healer, nor did it ever cross my mind that i could even be a healer until i had a life changing experience 5 years ago. At that time i had a spiritually transformative experience that included a calling to be a healer. I then “crashed” into a spiritual emergency that included a lot of suffering that lasted for years. This was my soul’s call to for me to become healed, and i needed a lot of healing. 

Since then I’ve been going through a grueling process that has forced me to face and feel every bit of me that needs healing. I finally found effective healing and training through my shamanic teacher, who i discovered three years ago—and i thank God for this because his healings were the only ones that were able to help me and it literally saved my life. I gladly paid for every single healing that I ever received because I knew his trained healers were working with all their heart and soul to help me. 

Because my desire to help others was so strong, when I started learning how to heal, I gladly provided healings for free because my heart hurt to see others suffer. I used my own supplies that I paid for with my own money. I have also paid thousands of dollars in receiving training, purchasing tools, travel expenses, etc. I will continue to be paying for training in the future for years to come as I advance in my skills. On top of this I have a masters in transpersonal psychology which was not cheap. 

When it comes down to it, there needs to be some type of an energy exchange when we provide any kind of service to others. The healing I do is not necessarily “easy” or simple. There is a lot of preparation, time and supplies involved. I do it from my heart, not because I want to make money. But if there is no energy exchange, I won’t be able to do the healings in the first place. Also, people tend not to value things when they are just handed to them, except when someone is really really suffering. 

I believe there are still a few exceptional healers out there who do not charge, but this is very rare and it seems that these people are living in special circumstances that allows them to do so. I hope this gives some perspective on why healers charge

What happened to John of God?

John of God was a legitimate healer but did not practice good spiritual hygiene (which means keeping one’s self clean and protected spiritually while doing healing work), which left him vulnerable to darker forces. I know people who got very good healings from him and would go see him every year. 

However, he was a medium, which means that during his healings he would allow entities to come in and work through him. These were good beings that did healing work. But being a medium like that also leaves a person extremely vulnerable to anything, good or bad, to come through, unless you take very careful measures. I know this because i have been training as a healer for the past three years with a shaman who teaches very high standards of spiritual hygiene. 

If you look at the thousands and thousands of people John of God worked with over all these years, coming into contact with all those people suffering from all kinds of negative issues, eventually any medium healer would be affected by that—UNLESS they took very protective measures. This is what I suspect happened with John of God. It is very unfortunate and sad, especially for all the victims who wanted healing and instead got more trauma.

Make spirituality normal

Take the specialness out of spiritual phenomena.

 Make that which you want to experience and achieve normal.

It is a natural part of growth that you deserve, because at your core you are already a spiritual being.

The balance to healing

There are two sides to healing.

One side is healing the issues that are stuck in our psyches, including stuck trauma, past life issues, ancestral issues and anything spiritual, mental or emotional that is creating blockages and keeping us stuck. By "keeping us stuck" I mean the issue creates a chronic persistant feeling or condition that doesn't improve.

The other side to healing has to do with consciousness. This includes identifying with our True Present Self, that part of us that is peaceful and silent and connected with God. This means recognizing that our thoughts and emotions are not our True Self, that our real self can only be found in silence. This can feel scary to many people because it threatens the ego, which feeds off our emotions, thoughts and attachments. But letting go of our attachments, while painful, can be very freeing.

Healing the emotional, mental, spiritual and physical issues can take many forms. One very effective way to heal many issues is through spiritual shamanic healing, as I have personally found.

Healing the consciousness can be done through spiritual shamanic healing as well, but it does not substitute being mindful and present. Being present to our own thoughts and emotions helps to clear those blockages in our psyches and consciousness. The more we are healed, the more we are able to identify with our True Nature as Pure Consciousness. And the more we do this, the more we become pure in Heart and Spirit in Human form.

This is how we heal. This is how we best serve ourselves and humanity.

Namaste.

Selling the sacred

Those in full integrity of doing sacred healing work would never present it in a way to market themselves or at the expense of others.

I came across people who did this during my healing crisis years ago. They were mostly people who created glossy or expertise personas of themselves online. While I was too disempowered to see the red flags at the time, I can look back now and easily see how these people put their ego ahead of the sacredness of doing healing work.

An example of this is blog articles with the intent of SEO marketing. Another example is coming across people who are defensive, easily offended and put other people down in books and blog articles. Sometimes these negative behaviors are very subtle, but they are there if you look closely.

A person who is truly in touch with God, with the divine grace and sacredness of doing God's healing work, would never abuse this gift. Indeed, it is impossible for the tender energy of God's Divine Love and Light to exist in those places where ego plants itself.

Don't Take Your Suffering Personally

 Some of us deal with a heavy pain body through out our lives.

Awakening means more release of heavy energies as we transform to light.

Some people have heavier pain bodies than others. Some people in the awakening process seem to swim through life while others struggle more.

There is nothing wrong with you. There is a reason behind everything you are feeling, you just don't realize the reason for it. It can be physical, emotional, mental or spiritual. It can be from childhood trauma or from past lives. It can be heaviness carried from past generations. It can be from diet or physical imbalance in the body. If you are especially sensitive then you could be picking up heavier energies and not realizing it. There are a whole host of reasons. These are all the reasons for the pain bodies and it has nothing to do with who you are.

Pain bodies can cause depression, anxiety, fear, tiredness, lack of motivation, confusion.

Some things to help the pain body include spiritual healing, self inquiry practices (such as Eckhart Tolle), energy practices such as tao or pranic healing or qigong.  

Please, stay empowered. Do what you need to feel better and move through the pain.

Dealing with Intense thoughts and emotions to stay aware in the now

The goal is to stay aware in the now without the mind being consumed by emotional issues and meandering thoughts. Then we can be aware, in the present and conscious of our mind. This makes it easier to for us to step out of suffering.

To take things a step further, we can have an attitude of sincerity and personal Truth. In other words, we can become sincere in who we truly are. Sincerity makes it easier to manifest what is truly in our best interest in this world. It is makes life more fulfilling even if we aren't trying to manifest anything.

First of all, we must have self awareness. Are you aware of when you are caught up in emotional thoughts and feelings? Are you aware enough to catch when you are suffering?

Secondly, we must be in touch with how we feel in the body. Whenever we are suffering or emotional, there is a place in the body that feels it most. 

When you catch yourself suffering, feel where the suffering is felt in the body. Is it in the heart? The solar plexus? Somewhere else?

You can also have an attitude of curiosity toward the emotion, as opposed to feeling bad about it. Do not take it personally! There is a reason the emotion is there and it is not because there is anything wrong with you or because you did anything wrong.

Next separate the feeling from your thoughts. Focus on the body and take long, deep, slow breaths in a way that feels comfortable to you. Focus on how the breath makes your body feel. Breath down into the stomach so that it expands with each inhale. Feel how each breath helps to make the place in your body that is suffering feel more relaxed. The goal of this exercise is to calm the body enough that the mind becomes free from it.

It is okay if there is still suffering in the body. The goal was just to help ease the suffering in cases of intense and overwhelming feelings. 

Next, you can do the Inner Smile meditation as taught by Mantak Chia. This helps the body to become happy and lighter. It is very useful and can be found on YouTube.

To bring in even more light, get into a state of prayer and have gratitude for God (or whatever you choose to call the Divine.) Say, "I love you God, thank you God." And think of unconditional Love and Light.

Bring in self love. Give yourself a big hug or look into your eyes in the mirror and say, "I love myself. I forgive myself."

Have gratitude for the things in your life.

Put your consciousness in the present moment.

This is a practice that I try to implement to keep myself centered and to have better wellbeing. I hope it helps for you.

When spiritual teachings harm

Sometimes bad feelings aren't spiritual, emotional or mental problems.

That's because some feelings such as loneliness, lethargy and darkness can stem from physical issues.

Yes, health issues like toxins, hormone imbalances and thyroid disorders. Or from having an overly sensitive nervous system that other people can't understand. (Look up the vagus nerve for one thing...)

No amount of non-resistance, meditation, acceptance or doing "the work" will make things better. In fact, it could make things worse. 

I personally recommend Medical Medium for healing the root cause of health issues in addition to any needed medical treatment. I also recommend deep breathing exercises and learning body energy practices like prana healing, tao healing and qigong.

Please be empowered and take care of your health!

Healers and Spirit Guides

About four years ago a spiritual worker caused me a tremendous amount of emotional pain. I was going through a spiritual emergency at the time. One of the services she provided was shamanic healing, using spirit guides as part of her work.

Now that I look back, I see the red flags. This person had written books, taught classes, had been interviewed on several podcasts and had a pretty good following online. Yet there was something intimidating about her that I couldn't put my finger on. This person talked a lot about being compassionate, but realistically she wasn't fully in her heart. I should have listened to my gut instinct. But she seemed so successful and full of wisdom that I assumed my feelings were wrong. Disempowered by the turmoil in my life and my own self doubt, I was blind to my intuition.

I believe this person felt they were doing their best at the time. But there was a lack of mindful, compassionate expression on her part. I was already emotionally distraught when I contacted her, and her reaction left me stunned and bewildered. This person misunderstood what I had said, and thinking that I was having an attitude, she lashed out at me.


I have no ill-will against this person. I've long forgiven her. But I wonder about the level of healing she is actually able to provide, knowing that she is probably still doing this for people.

I believe any healing is better than no healing when someone is truly suffering, but I question the integrity of her guides.

If a person says they work with spirit guides, I personally would look very closely at the integrity of that person. Like attracts like. It makes sense that spirit guides will be a vibrational match to the people who work with them.

How does that person behave when nobody is watching, let alone when with people they are trying to help? Because it doesn't seem that spirit guides of the highest level would be able to work with someone who has a lot of ego, lacks compassion or hasn't healed those dark areas still hidden within their psyches.

Nobody is perfect, of course. Some people are born with a lot of spiritual power and have lived a life of humility and integrity. But for those who haven't, it can takes years of healing and intense personal work to achieve a level integrity, faith, humility and spiritual power that the highest level spirit guides can work with.

As my teacher says, "Are you teachable?" I've learned that this is what spirit guides of the highest level are looking for. If there is a lot of ego in the way, then a person will not be teachable. And if someone is not teachable, the healing work will be compromised.

I realize saying that spirit guides should be of the "highest level" may sound spiritually snobbish to some people.  I don't claim to know the best or to be the best when it comes to spiritual healing. However, spiritual beings come in a variety of flavors and spiritual strength just like people do. The spiritual world is not just all love and light where any spirit can make anything instantly happen. There are degrees of lightness and darkness with shades of grey in between.

A spiritual entity may have good intentions to be of service and offer to be a guide. But it might not be at a high enough frequency to do heavy spiritual work. This is akin to someone who dreams of competing in the Olympics when they have only been training at the gym for a few weeks.

I have direct experience of going to several different types of healers during a spiritual emergency. This was a serious situation that was destroying my life. These healers and modalities may have helped people going through less severe situations, but they were unfortunately were not enough to help me. So, I'm not saying that other healers are bad or completely ineffective. But there are definitely different degrees of spiritual strength, faith and effectiveness.

So here are just some things to think about. What traits do spirit guides of the highest level look for in healers? What does it mean for a person to be humble and to have integrity? How would a person like this behave?

This goes for any healing modality and for all healers. We are in a time when many people are being called to be more spiritual and do healing work. However, it is so important that people actually be ready on all levels to do this. It is important that the work they do is in integrity of God's Will.

It's possible for people to achieve this, but it's important to find a really good teacher that is both spiritually powerful and has tremendous faith in God.

I will point out that the same healer that caused me a lot of emotional pain during my spiritual emergency also mocked my teacher and the healers he trained for believing they had a strong connection to God. But in the end, they were the ones who were able to help me.

An Entire Universe's Worth of Celebration Blasting Off into Infinite Possibilities

Many people have a big misunderstanding about God. If they hear someone say the word God they might shrink away. Perhaps even feel some disgust.

I understand this. I was this way myself for many years even though I considered myself to be very spiritual.

Why do people do this?

It's because there is darkness within them that doesn't resonate with the Light of God. Even saying "Light of God" might sound preachy or religious, but it's just a term I'm using right now to convey something magnificent and incredible.

I could instead say "the best thing that could ever exist in the entire history of the universe" or "an entire universe's worth of celebration blasting off into infinite possibilities." The point is to explain something so awesome and amazing that people would drop everything to pursue this incredibleness.

But instead, they misunderstand. They hear "God" or "Light" and come up with their own interpretation of what this must mean, but can't truly perceive the meaning because there is too much darkness clouding their understanding of things.

So what if instead of saying Light of God I said the light within you that  results in inner peace, love and harmony with yourself, others and life. What if I took this even further and said this light is going to be so exciting and life-changing you won't believe the amazing experiences, relationships and fun you will have! 

What if I just called it Light. And when this Light is allowed to shine through you there is no more fighting with yourself, with others and with life? Allow yourself to imagine this possibility for a moment.

Now realize this this possibility can be real.

Know at this moment, that this possibility is a reality for the entire world. But it can only happen if we allow it to happen for ourselves individually first. This how peace on earth happens.

Dark doesn't feel good around Light, and Light doesn't feel good around Dark. Just because we feel annoyed or weird about something, it doesn't mean that it is bad. It might mean we just aren't ready to accept how good it is.

Sometimes there are preconceived notions or connotations associated with the word "God" due to childhood experiences, societal conditioning or even past lives. Some might associated God or Christianity or other religious paths as negative. We might think that Christians are self righteous, that Muslims are extremists, that the word God is cheesy, that Jesus was a fake or that devoting one's life to a spiritual path is unhealthy. But this is all due to a huge misunderstanding.

How can you truly know something if you can't truly see?

For many, God as omnipotent unconditional love and light is too hard to believe. It can seem too good to be true, maybe even impossible, that unconditional, eternal love can even exist.

This is because negativity within them is filtering their perception of reality and causing these beliefs. What does this negativity consist of? Among other things it is trauma, negative attitudes, doubt, skepticism, cynicism, anger, fear, certain belief systems about the world, lack of self love, lack of forgiveness for self and others.

The good news is that we can be healed of this negativity and darkness. And then we will have a true understanding and perception of things. A true perception of ourselves as infinite creations.

There is nothing we need to give up, unless we choose to. We don't need to change. We don't need to become religious or spiritual. When we heal, we naturally drop those things no longer serving us.

All we really need to do is have an understanding of ourselves as spirit, to love ourselves and to forgive ourselves. This is the true path to finding the Light of God within.

Frustrating Therapy Session During a Spiritual Emergency

I came across this journal entry from a couple years ago. The energy of that journal is so loaded with drama. I was so frustrated and angry at the time, but now chuckle when I read this:

I'm angry with [therapist] because I feel like he was completely overstepping what I said about needing to accept that I'm a healer. I made the mistake of saying something about my life being screwed if I don't figure out what to do. He tried to steer me into thinking about how there are other things in life that can be fulfilling.

I know this already!

He tried "coaching" me into figuring out the essence of what I wanted in a career. [I had a background in coaching.]

I also know this! ...that there are other ways to be heart centered in a career.

I have a passion for what I am learning NOW! [I was taking classes in shamanic healing.]

I already told him I could always be a librarian. I'm not interested in going through all the work of finding another career. PLUS I would still need to believe in myself at the same level. [I assume I meant spiritual level and as my True Self (healed and unwounded self), which was undefined at the time due to not knowing what Spirit was guiding me toward.]

I wish our focus could have been on self love, self confidence, the steps I'm taking now. I feel like I need to be careful how I word things now. I actually felt worse and less confident after our session.

Wow. What a nightmare that whole 2-year ordeal was. It's such a blessing to be where I am now, knowing what I know and doing what I feel like is my True Purpose in this world.

I think everyone just wants to be able to use their hearts in this world. That is our true purpose. 

The Power of Coaching

I had my first coaching session about 5 or 6 years ago and felt like I got more out of that than all of my therapy sessions combined. The difference was that the coaching sessions were focused purely on me and what I wanted to get out of the session (not what the therapist thought I needed). They were completely proactive and empowering, and left me feeling energized and enthusiastic about making changes in my life. Coaching also made me feel truly understood. Coaching isn't therapy, and it shouldn't be confused with therapy, but it can work wonders for self aware people who are capable of making changes in their lives. Especially if the coach has had mentor coaching, which trains coaches to see and work through their blind spots and refine their skills.

Healing from the ancestors

I've made it a habit to pay respect and connect with my ancestors each Sunday with a small altar on my dresser.

Today I noticed that my heart felt more open after doing this little ritual.

Perhaps it is just the result of feeling gratitude? Perhaps a healing from my helping ancestors?

Either way, I am feeling very appreciative right now. :)