Frustrating Therapy Session During a Spiritual Emergency

I came across this journal entry from a couple years ago. The energy of that journal is so loaded with drama. I was so frustrated and angry at the time, but now chuckle when I read this:

I'm angry with [therapist] because I feel like he was completely overstepping what I said about needing to accept that I'm a healer. I made the mistake of saying something about my life being screwed if I don't figure out what to do. He tried to steer me into thinking about how there are other things in life that can be fulfilling.

I know this already!

He tried "coaching" me into figuring out the essence of what I wanted in a career. [I had a background in coaching.]

I also know this! ...that there are other ways to be heart centered in a career.

I have a passion for what I am learning NOW! [I was taking classes in shamanic healing.]

I already told him I could always be a librarian. I'm not interested in going through all the work of finding another career. PLUS I would still need to believe in myself at the same level. [I assume I meant spiritual level and as my True Self (healed and unwounded self), which was undefined at the time due to not knowing what Spirit was guiding me toward.]

I wish our focus could have been on self love, self confidence, the steps I'm taking now. I feel like I need to be careful how I word things now. I actually felt worse and less confident after our session.

Wow. What a nightmare that whole 2-year ordeal was. It's such a blessing to be where I am now, knowing what I know and doing what I feel like is my True Purpose in this world.

I think everyone just wants to be able to use their hearts in this world. That is our true purpose. 

The Power of Coaching

I had my first coaching session about 5 or 6 years ago and felt like I got more out of that than all of my therapy sessions combined. The difference was that the coaching sessions were focused purely on me and what I wanted to get out of the session (not what the therapist thought I needed). They were completely proactive and empowering, and left me feeling energized and enthusiastic about making changes in my life. Coaching also made me feel truly understood. Coaching isn't therapy, and it shouldn't be confused with therapy, but it can work wonders for self aware people who are capable of making changes in their lives. Especially if the coach has had mentor coaching, which trains coaches to see and work through their blind spots and refine their skills.